Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Fuckin shit.. This month has been a very bad month fer me.. Ma life has gotten from bad to worse.. Everythin happened at once n in a click.. First it was da sufferin in a shitty relationship wer I try to take in wat I can n den followed up wit da break up, den ma parents arguments, ma fuckin sister nonsense crappy prob wit ma parents, ma aunt who thinkz i'm da "bad" gal, da projects which is multiplyin, ma own freakin emo, stress at werk, ma mum's probz which she poured everything to me n lots more lah... Wen can ma life get any better...?? I really wish i'm out of this life n go into sum1's else life who is better.. I have been takin all this shit slowly n calmly n nvr once told everythin to any1.. Mayb a bit here n der but not all.. I wanna scream if I could but wat for..?? Release it fer a while wen u noe dat ur prob will stay der n wun change even a bit..?? I'm tired too, of puttin up a gd brave front everyday, hopin ppl think dat i'm crazy n juz so damn bored wen i'm actually sufferin deep inside..

I got no more feelings, no more fun, no more happiness, no more tears, no more of wateva u guyz can think of.. Feelin so lifeless.. Juz like a stone.. Hit dem as much n hard as u can n da stone will either crack or stay da same.. Haiz.. I'm screamin in pain inside n wish I hv sum1 to lean on.. But i dun really want it coz i will eventually prefer to die alone.. Arggghh.. Can anybody pls ask me way ma life is like dis..?? I dun choose to hv a life like dis but y i'm ended up in one of those shitty life..?? I'm tryin ma best to b positive bout life, but how can i b wen everythin is gettin from bad to worse as each day pass..?? Tell me..!?!

I wanna b alone n run away to a place wer no one can ever find me.. Wer I can calm down ma piece of mind n see life da way I wish to.. A place wer ders onli me.. No problemz or wateva shit life can store fer me.. I juz want time fer maself.. I'm feelin so lonely no matter how many friends i've got.. Anyone who can cure ma loneliness is welcomed.. Life, loneliness, lust, lies, love, live... Haiz.. Guess I wanna leave now.. Thankz fer spendin ur free time readin this piece of ma lettin-out-ma-stress piece of ma life.. So clueless of wat is even happenin now...


she bitched
at 9:57 PM


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