Woo hoo... Yesterday was ma sis birthday... 26th of February... Zakiah aka Chinois Chic.. Ma family did celebrated her birhtday buy treatin at Long John wit da family.. I gave her a card this time coz I'm really short of cash... While ma youngest sis gave her a book.. Gosh, isn't she pampered...?? And another thing, ma used-to-be-tutor-who-is-also-ma-neighbour, treated her to midnite movies.. Treated me also lah.. Hahaz.. We watched Constantine.. Really a good show manz.. At Marina GV.. But hours b4 that after we booked the tickets we so-called went to have a late night exercise.. Hahaz.. Actually walk around fr Marina den to Esplanade den back to Marina den to Suntec and den hang out smwer near da conrad Hotel den to bla bla.. Long story... Hahaz..
At 12.20, we were back to da cinema n gettin ready to watched Constantine.. Hehe.. Really superb manz.. Only bout da third quarter of da movie was I bein disturbed by da those motherfuckers manager of T1T.. Haiz.. Y is our outlet T2T closed..?? Y can't dey juz renewed..?? I dun like T1T.. Dey suckz to da core.. Ok.. Back to da movies.. It was great n I really enjoyed it.. Thank goodness the show is interestin dat it brought a smile to ma face rather than bein sulky due to da fuckin assholes of T1T..
Ma both married tutors, ma sis n me went to Changi Village to eat at 3.30 am after da movies.. hahaz.. Gosh.. da bapoks n pros der were tryin to make money while i kept on disturbin dem after bein reminded by ma tutors not to.. hahaz.. I juz can't stop it.. I mean, look at da bapoks face, body, butt.. Gosh... Its horrible u noe.. Esp wen dey r wearin sm tight clothes wit those mini skirts n tryin to walk catwalks..??? Do dey think dey r so sexy..?? Did dey think dey r sm kind of models..?? Eeewwww.. I laughed upon seeing dat manz.. Seeing that muscular-manly body n dat manly face tryin very hard to b a woman... Gosh... All ma hair is standin up manz.. I was really into sarcarsm dat i talked n make fun of dem out loud.. One even tried to confront me but too bad I was in da car.. Hahaz.. Dat bapoks still can show da middle finger.. Hahaz.. Lame lah.. So childish.. Grow up n realise dat this is a reality lah u all bapokz..!!! And fer da prostitutes, u ppl r sluts n dun u hv shame at all..?? Selling off ur body like its things dat r bein auctioned off at pasar malam... haiyo...
Anyway, got back at 6 am n slept at ma tutors house.. Den woke up at 7 n wen back home.. Went to do housewerk n met ma baby, fred n Eva at City Hall at 1 plus.. I was late as usual.. hahaz.. Wandy den later joined us at 5 plus at Far east.. Got a great day wit dem.. Though ma eyes r in search for a bed to get sm slp.. Hahaz... N thankz baby fer dat 10 buckz.. So sweet of u.. Hehe... I'm bankrupt......................................
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Saturday, February 26, 2005
Life Life Life...
Haiz.. Does every man change after dey've got want dey want..?? Not lovin n showin da same attention n love dey did b4 gettin attached..?? Life is full of surprises.. Once, u see him so romantic n is der dyin fer u n will do anything.. N in a click after attached, he starts to slack around n spend less time wit da gal.. Crapz manz.. no offence guy but isn't it true..?? After u guys got attached, ur guys thinkin will be, " I got ma dream gal n i blieve she will b wit me forever..." Cut dat crap guyz.. Reality manz.. Gals like to be treated well consistentlyn show dem love.. By callin her b4 u slp or say I love u b4 goin to bed or any sweet werds n things u guys can think of.. Gals r human beins which needs to b showered wit sweet things in life... Makin ur gal happy is equal to makin urself happy... Rite guyz..?? Dun u think like dat..?? Seeing da sweet pretty soft lips of her smillin so wide, tellin u how much u mean to her n dat u have make her life more meaningful dat she culdn't bare to leave u even for a moment.. She wish to b wit u every sec, sharin every moments of ur life n b part of ur life... Needin u to hug her too n tell her that u need her in ur life wit that sweet romantic kisses... She'll b amazed n touched.. Bein touched by da heart is wat will give a gal an impact on her life.. It'll mark ur name in her heart... She'll remember u even though u guyz ever break up [touch wood]..
Anyway, i not sidin da gals.. just givin ma thoughts.. And fer da gals.. Give da guyz time.. Express ur feelin... U might show u r strong on ur outside appearance, but plz lah, we're gals.. we're known fer our soft side.. So if u dun feel gd or bad in dat relationship, share ur feelings.. Work things out.. Coz, every thing dat happenz in da relationship, its an added points.. makes u more understand of each other needs n wat u guys r lookin in fer dat relationship.. Love is beautiful.. Its u guys n gals dat makes it stinkz weneva u all fail to bring da love out... And dun b selfish.. Coz its not gonna bring u anywer.. Jealousy is ok coz its norm n it makes one person loves n show another how much dey love u..
hahaz.. guess till here.. Those in relationships, good luck.. While da singles, take time n dun rush... And always smile ppl.. U nvr noe who is fallin fer ur sweet smile..!! I'm off.. Coz ma baby slps on me again.. He slpt without informin me while i'm here waitin fer his call..............
::LiFe oF a s!mpLe yeT c0nFus!n gaL::
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at 12:55 AM
Friday, February 25, 2005
I can't wait to get next to you
I just can't leave you alone
Boy you got me doing things that I would never do
And I can't stop the way I'm feelin if I wanted to
I'm crazy bout the way you that you could make me say your name
And if I couldn't have you I would probably go insane cause...
Only u can make me feel
And only u can take me there
And only u can make me feel
And only u can take me there
I can't wait to get next to you
I just can't leave you alone
Boy u stay inside my mind ain't no denyin dat
And only u culd do the things dat got me comin back
Gotta b da realest thing that I have ever felt
And I'll do wat I gotta do to keep u to myself coz..
Only u can make me feel
And only u can take me der
And only u can make me feel
And only u can take me der
Crazy bout da way u make me feel
I juz gotta hv u here
And I wanna let u noe
I won't ever let u go..
I can't wait to get next to you
I juz can't leave u alone...
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
Damnz.. Werk suckz today.. Hahaz.. Gotta noe dat ma fav n kinda close manager, Teddius is gonna b transferred to ECP CBTL.. Gonna miss him lots.. I miss his cousin so much alreadi... Hahaz.. Met both dudes juz now.. Ted is da mornin while Jeremy in da afternoon.. Ted is still attach wit Suga. Long dist relationship.. Its gonna b great if dey can survive.. Wonder wat its like to b in their shoes though I've been tru once but dat was fer awhile.. Today also last day to see Ted.. Tml he werkin at T1DT.. Not gonna meet him.. Errmmm.. Mayb.. If we hang out first at T1 b4 headin home..
T2T, ma werkplace is closin soon.. Stupid CBTL dun wan to renew da contract.. Hahaz.. Mayb dey wanna get rid of those cockroaches first.. Hahaz.. Der were lotsa dem juz now.. Kinda big.. Medium i guess.. So gross wen dey came out in big grp n scattered around.. Today werk wit Aziah, Auntie gourmet n dat naggy manager Lynn who can f*** off... She's a nuisance manz.. nag nag nag all day long like got nthin better else to do.. If nvr nag, she'll talk talk talk n den will ask ppl to do thingz.. Wen got slam, she'll leave us n do smthin more "important" such as clanin da dust.. An idiot manz.. Miss Yantie.. She werk at kiosk today.. T2K used to b a great place to hang out but now ok ok.. 'Coz it has bn invested wit cockroaches too.. Haiz.. Anyway, got tipz today.. Kinda lot.. Hahaz.. Cool.. Also, talked n asked Aziah wat life is to b a lesbian..?? Hahaz.. Wat wuld b da feelin wen a gal kiss another gal tru da lipz..? Does da feelin da same...?? Wat wuld b ur feelinz..?? Wat if a guy hv a crush on da les..?? Hahaz.. Lots lots ques... Will she ever get tired of havin gf..?? Or she bcame one coz she's tired of guyz..?? Gals, hv u ever thought of bcumin a les..?? hahaz.. Funny thoughts.. By da way, i gonna b transferred to T1T wit ma buddies.. Wati, Aida, Fanana, Huda n sum others gonna b der.. Da sad thingy is dat sum r not.. We all r bein separated.. Eg like Fai, Yantie & Izan gonna b at T2D while Jeremy, Amir, Aziah, Azrina, papa S.K & papa Andrew gonna b at T2K.. Haiz.. T1T gonna b borin.. Not much customerz.. life so bored..
Today I also so so so blur... Lots thingy happenz today but i'm juz so lazy to type.. Now i noe y i fell in love wit Garfield.. hahaz.. Wat Dian n Midzi said is kinda true.. Hahaz.. Lots of food r bein thrown away coz I dropped it.. Hehez.. Den $100 lost [but its not coz me..!!!].. Hmm.. n lotz more.. Gonna slp soon.. Tml cannot b late.. Meetin lil Semut at 7.45.. hahaz... If late, i die die.. Hahaz.. Nitez.. Live life to da fullest.. You might not noe wat is in store fer ya in future... Miz ya lotz esp ma sis Dian..!! And to u ma cuzzie Fadley..!! Very happy to meet u again today.. Been quite smtime liaoz.. Granny is happy wen i told her i saw u.. Byez... Take care..
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Bored bored... Haiz.. No paper today n i sat at hm.. Waitin fer ppl to ask me out but no one.. At last ma fav cousin who's just gotten engaged n she's onli 17, called.. ma dearest cuzzie wanted to go fer dis interview for werk at Bishan n den wanna meet me.. I agreed.. She kinda stupid though.. Sorry Anis.. hahaz.. Live at Jurong West den wanna werk at Bishan.. hahaz.. She's tired of werkin at Mr Bean at Raffles City.. esp wit da chinese aunties n da way dey treated her.. Complained to me.. hahaz.. She's been tru a lot.. Before n after engagement.. In werk, family, frenz.. Haiz.. Pity her actually.. Hopin her fiance, Shah or known as Boi, will take care of her.. I trust him.. He'll make a great guy fer her.. She's happy to b wit him n dats makes me happier.. Enugh bout her life.. u guyz dun need to noe much.. hahaz.. Slack n treated her at Burger King at C.P.. da second time she come to area.. Usually i will go her side.. Hahaz.. treated her Famous Amos n top up her ez-link card.. Hahaz.. We den took a bus to Rivervale Plaza coz i wanna wash all those picz dat i've bn keepin.. Picz of me n ma ex.. Hahaz.. memories.. Me n ma cuzzie n frenz..
Hahaz.. Kinda happy she hang out wit me.. We talked n laughed.. Hahaz.. "Infratred" and not "infrared".. I'm another idiot also.. Hahaz.. Ma part cannot tell.. Its been sealed... hahaz.. Crapz..!! Shah came too to fetched her home.. Pity him.. From Tuas n came here to Seng kang n den to Jurong West n back to his hm i dunno wer... Wow... Gd thingy he has a bike... He's sick too.. Lookin at da couple makes me feel fer dem.. Anis even complained dat she is so called "bankrupt" after da engagement, which was held on da first day of Chinese New Yr.. Hahaz.. Anis Anis...
Anyway, supposed to play badminton in da morn but ma dearest sis Dian was still slpin n didn't asn our call... And we cancelled it.. Hahaz.. Actually i was kinda lazy to play also.. Hahaz.. N also supposed to meet Airie in da eve but cancelled too.. Sorry..!! Not gonna meet him tml till Sunday.. Hahaz.. Big Party fer me...! Hurray.. Can flirt..! hahaz... Kiddin.. But ermmm.. I'll put into consideration.. hahaz..
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at 11:19 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Stressed in da morning b4 ma exam but after I chilled wit ma beloved frenz.. I feel so great.. Tml no paper.. Hurray.. Today Electronicz.. Arrgghh.. Very hard manz.. N noe wat Faredz..?? If I given another chance, I rather take this semester first den now.. The module u're takin now is much easier.. Been tru dat.. This semester sux.. I rather give up manz.. Hahaz.. Esp Electronicz.. Eeeww.. Similar like Physic.. I hate Physic.. So complicated n troublesome.. Never been gd in dat sub.. Dunno how m I gonna cope this module + semester.. Tutor me..?? Hahaz.. As if u wan.. Hahaz.. Lazy bum.. Hahaz.. Jokin ya..
Hang out wit ma buddies.. Sis Dian, Midzi n Khai.. After exam at 12.30, we headed to Harbourfront.. hehez..And we saw this shop dat sell soft toys.. Hehez.. So cute.. Alahai.. da Garfield.. Oooo So Cute.. Irresistable.. Just like dat sum1.. hahaz.. N both Midzi n Dian so bad.. They say I like Garfield coz of da character.. Lazy.. Humph..!! u gyz watch out.. n watch out n b prepared not to go jln2 but bash up..!! b4 u guyz loya buruk, I rather b lame first.. Hahaz.. Den went to Delifrance coz I was so hungry.. N Dian.. Ma dearest sis disturbed me anak mat salleh.. Coz I always dine in Cafes n reataurantz.. Those expensive stuff one.. hahaz.. Like Swensen's, Delifrance, Coffee Bean, Starbuckz.. And I rarely dine in at those kopitiamz.. no matter how I tried to argue, like I also went to kopitiam, I failed.. Coz wat she n midzi said is kinda true.. hahaz.. Wat to do.. Been growin up wit dat kind of life.. Ma Cousinz also brings me to this kind of place and always treat da expensive stuff.. hahaz.. Not onli on foods, but other stuffz like undies n clothes.. Hahaz.. Haiyo.. I wan to downgrade ar.. So u guyz will stop sayin dat.. Hahaz.. I love u sis..!! Thankz for juz now also.. u noe wat I noe rite..?? Hahaz..
Met Airie at 5 pluz goin 6.. Sorry was late again.. At City Hall.. Hahaz.. His galfrenz tot I was a Chinese.. Hahaz.. Do I really look like one..? His galfrenz was kinda shocked wen dey were guessin n Airie said, "dats her..".. Hahaz.. I'm crappinz.. Hehez.. Went to Esplanade after dat.. See da sunset.. So beautiful.. Though not dat clear.. But da sky was beautiful.. Really.. Appreciate nature's stuff.. Da creation.. So beautiful.. Da calm sea.. So pretty n nice.. Must see this wit ur loved ones.. It'll b more meaningful.. u noe who u r.. Gtg.. So sleepy.. Wish u r here.. Thankz for everything juz now.. Miss you.. ;)
:: LiF3 oF a s!mpLe y3T c0nFus!n gaL ::
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Monday, February 14, 2005
Happy Valentine's Day everyone..!!
14 February.. A day for couples.. As for me I celebrated wit ma dearest Semut..! Ma dearest sis too.. After school met up wit her.. We had planned earlier to celebrate together instead wit out dearest guy.. Hahaz.. Frenz cum first den any1.. Esp ur bestfrenz.. Met ma Semut at 5 pm at Dhouby Ghaut.. Hahaz.. Bought her an Elmo da day b4.. Hehez.. I knew she'll like it.. Hehez.. N wen she saw dat after I gave her dat thingy, she was like, "Eh gal.. Gosh.. Eh, ma gift fer ya is small leh.. Eh.. U ah.. Whoa..".. Hahaz.. But her reaction was really funny.. Hahaz.. Its da thought dat counts gal.. Hahaz.. And thankz fer dat Passionfruit from Body Shop.. Our loves.. Body Shop.. Hehe.. N Chomel too.. Hahaz.. Bout dat watch, juz keep it.. He's sincere n really hope u'll like it.. Dats is da onli thing he wants.. dats y he'd ask me fer ma help.. Remember again, Its da thought dat counts..! Hehez.. As fer ma dearest sis Dian.. Happy Valentine's Day.. Though ur sweetie culd not celebrate wit u, remember dat though u guyz are apart, u both r close at hearts.. Everyday is a Valentine's Day.. Wat mekes a relationship special is dat wen both of u think of each other n feel da presence of another wen apart..! Love ya..
Airie, thankz lotsa fer dat gift.. Really appreaciate it lots lots.. It was really a surprise to me.. Didn't thought u wuld bought dat.. U're a True Star.. And hope u'll like ma gift though it juz a small thingy.. Hehez.. Gosh.. Thankz lotsa.. I'm lost of werds.. From da moment I saw u carryin dat box.. Hahaz.. ;)
And to da rest.. Happy Valentine's Day.. Esp to ma beloved ones.. Ma family.. Love is in da air.. Love is Beautiful.. Fall in love and let love brings u to smwer wer u feel special n appreciated.. Luurrrrvvvvvvveeeee..
:: LiF3 oF a s!mpLe y3T c0nFus!n gaL ::
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at 11:17 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
V-Day is comin and i'm gonna spend ma time not wit Airie( sorry baby..!! ) but wit ma lil' semut part 1... hahaz.. Cool rite..?? Hahaz.. Hv to make up time for da lost time... Nvr seen her bout 2 wkz or so... Werk also see her durin da changin shift.. Miss ma semut pt 1... hahaz.. Anyway, der's a surprise fer u also on dat day gal.. Not by me but sum1 else.. Hehez.. This thingy cannot tell u (i'm sorry sis..!! promise dat sum1 liaoz..)... Hehez... n dun scold me or anything..!! But i'm sure u'll like da thingy.. Got lah.. See it fer urself on dat day.. Hahaz..
Anyway, today i spend ma whole mornin wit Midzi... Went cycling wit him.. Ate prata at Thasevi at Jalan Kayu... Hahaz.. He treated me coz he hv too..!! Anyway, thankz ya... hahaz... We chated at dat place till bout 11 plus n went off... Den went to sit by da river n tok tok again.. hahaz.. learnt a lot today.. Saw crabs, jellyfish, fishes... Hahaz.. I'm like a little kid.. Rite..?? And ma hp dropped twice.. Luckily it didn't fell to da river if not i'll shout.. And i'll turn into a big monster... Hahaz.. N Midzi will run away..tok bout parents naggin.. esp mummies... Can b really pain in da ass wen mums are really tired n stressed.. They'll nag n tok2 till ur ear can burst out... hahaz.. Pity ma dearie sis Dian ain't wit us... Supposed to b but haiz.. Dunno wat happen.. Communication broke down btw her n Midzi... Haiyo.. u guyz ar.. Dah lah tak nak tdo..Who ask u guys to slp late..?? Lain kali ajak me also.. hahaz.. But i was dead slpin dat time.. u both noe me.. Hahaz.. Miss u sis..!!! If wanna cycle, tell earlier aite..!! I wanna go out meet ma baby also.. hahaz...
Reached home bout 1 plus.. Went out bout 8 plus.. Hmmm.. Really one whole morning.. Reached hm, did ma housework that is to mop da house... So tired... Den paid ma bils.. $122.. Rich rich..!! Gonna cut down manz.. If this kind of bill every mth... I'll die.. I'll go bankrupt... Or i'll go find one suga daddy or rich man n flirt... hahaz.. crapz lah Dee.. Hahaz.. Watched "Puteri Gunung Ledang".. Nice love story.. I'm touched.. love so divine.. haiz.. Got nthin to say bout LOVE... Let it find its way.. Hahaz.. Those haven watch dat show, i suggest u go n catch it.. Really nice show.. Trust me..
Bout 7.30, watched Power Rangers..!!! Hehez.. Ma favourite..!! Hahaz.. So cool.. Really bring back ma childhood.. Recalled da times me n ma cuzzies.. Pretendin to b Power Rangers.. I'm da yellow one.. Supposed to b Trini ( da first version-original one).. Saber-toothed tiger... Woo hoo.. Hahaz.. Cool manz.. Watched it wit ma mum juz now.. Kinda lucky to hv a cool parent though dey r strict.. I'm proud to hv dem..!! Hehez... den watched "Cewekku jutek" wit mum again.. hehez.. Love is so complicated.. Wen u findin n tryin to get tru him, u failed.. n wen its his turn, he failed too.. haahz.. Dunno wat will happen next.. Need to watch next episode... Hmm.. Till here.. Miss ya guys lots.. N sorry to Irfan, Willard, Rajan n Kingsley coz didn't attend ur gig juz now.. Hehe.. So far lah.. Hehez.. Byez...!!
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at 11:08 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
9 February 2005
A day wer i spent ma time helping out ma wit ma beloved cousin's engagement.. And she is only 17.. A yr younger than me.. Hehez..Had a jolly great time.. Met all ma relatives.. ma baby Sayang Ilhan Zafhran.. Hehez.. he's so cute..!! Except ma another fav cuzzin, Yasier.. And ma Abd Mahfudz wit his family.. Hahaz.. She's so pretty today.. But her make up suckz a bit though.. Hahaz.. ma cousin's sister fren make up for her.. Overall, she still look beatiful.. Heehz.. Took lotsa picz wit her.. She was nervous n culdn't sit still.. Hahaz... A day at her house.. hahaz.. Was kinda sad though.. Caught in a misunderstandin wit baby.. n was kinda waitin fer his call.. Got him tru Fred... Thankz lotz for helpin.. n Wandi too.. Hehez.. And esp ma sis Dian... She helped to console me tru sms.. So sweet.. Smsed her truout da day.. Cool to hv a great sis like u n proud to met ya in ma life..!! Muackz.. thankz lotsa ya..!! If ya hv prob, do share.. I'll b der for u.. U noe dat..!!
Weneva i see ma cousinz wit their guy, I felt left out.. Haiz.. just dat I dun wanna intro mine to da family.. Afraid is one thing.. Another is dat ma parents.. hahaz.. Onli ma nearest babies will understand.. Really wish i culd bring mine to da family.. Anyway, helped out to clean da place out wit ma uncles, aunts, cousinz esp kak Shydah n Yazid-her bf... Dey r gonna get engage this July or August.. not confirm n she's 19.. I'm 18... Hahaz.. I'm in da middle of ma cuzzin's who gonna n alreadi engaged.. haiyo...
Watz cool bout engagement..?? Dun dey want to cool n relax first..?? Flirt..?? Enjoy life..?? It's funny n a shockin news wen i heard dey wanna get engage.. I call dem dumbz.. Haiyo.. Wat's happenin to this world..?? But nevertheless, wish them luck n respect their decision.. It's their life.. Not mine.. All da best ya..!! Hahaz..
Engage is part of puttin in commitment.. Haiz.. Will i ever be able to do dat..??
I will... Sure.. Hahaz.. I tried.. But failed.. mayb ain't ready.. But keep on tryin wun harm.. Rite..? Hahaz.. Feelings are not to b toyed wit.. Wen u love dat sum1, tell him/her so, b4 he/she is taken.. You'll regret one day for not expressing ur feelings earlier wen she's/he's taken.. Got wat i mean..?? hahaz.. dat's all babez n dudez.. Love is never jealous... Love is Beautiful..
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at 11:25 PM
Its gonna be the umpteen times that i wanna say that i'm not proud n nvr will b proud breaking ppl's heart.. I'm a heartybreaker.. I have to admit that.. I do things without thinkin.. Yeah, its true... But not this time.. I blieved i can start afresh.. That's y... I wanna live u up.. Make ya happy n is tryin ma best.. I do feel da way u feel wen i first told ya.. I didn't lie n it's da truth.. For sure.. U may think i'm a liar or a bitch or wateva.. I dun mind.. All i blieve is maself since u r not takin me in.. I'm a problematic gal wit a fuckin attitude.. Mayb i dun deserve u... But no matter wat, we can start afresh.. I'm sorry.. Though i hate da werd so much... I have to say dat.. I'm sorry again.. Guess i noe who u r.. Call me wen u read this... Life suckz.. Wat u see is not always wat u get... But i'll try n make things ok.. Meet me tml aite..
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at 4:56 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Life stinkz to da core...
"life changes, memories don't.."
But life is full of surprises, challenges n problemz...
Never ending...
Everyday is a new day wit new problem..
Haiz... Really sux manz..
First.. I saw Jeremy b4 i go werk n after werk.. I miss him dearly.. Frankly.. Though da relationship was a short one but memorable one.. He's da person who has very similar everything to another ex of mine.. Whom i fell in love wit deeply but left me juz like dat right b4 ma eyes fer smthin else.. Partly it was ma fault.. I admit dat.. Ma mistake fer not callin him durin ma break n didn't spend time wit him.. He felt jealous n diff.. Guess started to get bored n angry.. I dunno.. But readin back his blog, which I have been doin all this while keepin trackz of him, I really felt guilty.. Took things for granted.. That was ma mistake.. Next, didn't show him how much he meant to me till da time we broke up.. Haiz.. Had enugh tears fer dat.. Till now, he still lingers in ma mind.. No matter whom i'm wit.. He really gave me an impact....
Anyway, Jeremy made me smile.. Wit a smile on his face, it juz makes me feel better.. Since he step to ma werkin place.. He's a great guy.. Different n a person who i can share anythin about.. Our relationship was a diff one.. Haiz.. I dunno how to put it in werds.. But the times n memories we shared will b kept & locked in ma heart.. Wen I saw him juz now, ma missin him grew.. Though he was rite infront of ma eyes..Haiz.. Wateva...
Will things ever go back to wer it started..??
Coz i've been waitin fer dat to happen but it nvr did..
Ever since before i started poly.. Gonna b a yr soon..
Haiz..
Life is nvr perfect..
And is bein in relationship or singlehood better..??
Any1..?? Help me..
I'm lost n blur... Confused soul...
Gonna force maself to b positive...
Goodbye..
[ :: L!fE oF a s!mPLe yeT cOnFus!n gaL :: ]
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at 11:01 PM
Friday, February 04, 2005
Gonna say dat today is kinda a cool day.. hahaz.. Ever heard of rappin for ur CIP project.?? Well, i did dat juz now.. Wen Dorothy asked me if we if we could rap on da phone i told her yeah, thinkin it was "wrap" n not rap... hahaz... i realize onli wen she said "den u rap after i'll give u da werds.."
"werds..??"
"huh..??"
"oh... rap as in rap n not wrap as in wrap... damnz... ermmmm.. we'll try ya..."
"great.. so see ya guyz at 3 ok..??"
"yeah.. sure..[soundin not convincin]... "
hang up da phone n told ma sis, midzi n khai bout it.. hahaz.. dey laugh n surprised... our CIP doin rap..?? Rap for our CIP..?? hahaz... sure anotz..?? hahaz..
But in da end we did it.. Rap for our CIP.. Record it for da primary schools students to listen.. Hahaz.. Had a great time rappin esp wen i had to start first.. So clever of u all ar... Make me do more werk.. I noe shame ok..!!! Haahz... Attentive rap dunno how many times record.. hahaz.. Crap n Lame lahz..
Anyway.. Meet ma baby at city hall.. Waited for him bout an hour n was kinda pissed off but kept ma cool.. Dee cool though she's hot inside......... Cool he came at the spot wen i was bout to leave the place... Hahaz... Sorry baby.. Good thingy u came in time.. Spent time wit ma baby at esplanade... hehez..
hasn't been der for bout 2 yrs alreadi... miz dat place.. Miz da memories also.. Onli ma sec sch peepz noes wat... Hehez.. Was glad i spent ma time wt u der baby.. Its really nice n beautiful... Its a couples place.. Though we're not a couple officially.. Hahaz... Take ur time.. Miz ya anyway..
Muackz.. Had a great time wit ya.. Muackz..!
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at 10:40 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
this is me wit Airie.. Hmmm.. Couple..?? Not yet... Valentines mayb.. Hahaz..
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